...and offers you life with Him. That's the Gospel. When you decide that you want to take Him up on His offer, He'll let you. This Life is the one you are made to live. It isn't foreign, but rather is the fullest expression of you as the image of God. It takes some getting used to, it takes some effort in remembering to put others before you, it does feel odd. But it isn't. You needn't be worried about whether you're one of the Elect, you needn't worry about having to get everything right, you needn't worry about having to keep a bunch of rules once you've returned to Him. You will need to want to live the Life He offers, even if you don't live it perfectly. Believe it or not, it gets easier and easier the more you experience the Life of God.